Unfortunately around the middle of August, my recovery went downhill and with that went all motivation for anything that I previously enjoyed doing, including writing for my blog. Now that my routine with school and other life stuff has calmed down a bit, I am excited to come out with some new content for you all! Well anywhooo, I have had quite a bit happen since I last updated you all! Thanks to everyone who filled out my blog survey (see last post). I didn’t know that so many of you were interested in my person life!
Social Life: That’s me (far right) at a friend’s barn last weekend. This is my first “party” that I’ve been to and I am proud of myself for stepping out of my comfort zone. Don’t worry, I was 100% safe, sober, and I left at 11. Normally I say no to these kinds of things so it felt really really weird to be doing such “normal teenager stuff”. Other than that one night however, I haven’t been doing a ton socially. I’ve been very busy with other stuff mentioned below and I have been feeling like isolating myself. It’s definitely something I want to work on!
These past few weeks have been spent doing a lot of family activities. My younger sister (bottom row, second to left) got confirmed! We live in a different state from the rest of my family, so my mom’s 3 siblings, their spouses, and one of my cousins (the rest had to stay at college) came to visit. I don’t see them very much so it was nice to catch up! Unfortunately, the Friday before her confirmation my grandmother passed away. She had been ill for a while with lung problems and was on hospice, so we knew this was coming. It was still rather shocking, especially considering the fact that all of my extended family was already out visiting us. So after school on Tuesday, my dad flew me and my sister back to visit them (my mom left earlier). It was very sad to think that she is no longer here on this Earth. I don’t know if I believe in God/Heaven yet. My grandma used to call me her “Miss America” and for some reason that has been staying very close to my heart as I’ve been thinking about her these past few days.
I am taking the most challenging course load I ever have this year. So far, school has gone well although I am extremely nervous for AP Chemistry. I honestly have no clue what the heck is going on in that class! As my intake suffered recently, my concentration went downhill as well. That has made school more challenging but is just another reason to recover!
I spend 2 hours most Saturdays volunteering at a local children’s museum. Last weekend, I got invited to their annual gala where I received an award for my work! I am so so so so grateful for that recognition. I don’t want to sound whiny, but I never have really felt appreciated for my hard work. When I did sports, I wasn’t ever an “important player”. I’m not the top of my class. I’m not an amazing artist or anything. You get my drift. Volunteering makes me feel amazing because I feel like I have a purpose in this world, and would HIGHLY recommend anyone who is in recovery to take up volunteering. It keeps me busy and prevents me from spending time doing harmful behaviors.
What are you looking forward to? What class was the hardest for you that you’ve taken?