I hope you have all had a great few days! As I mentioned in a previous post, I spent the past weekend visiting 4 colleges with my mom. I am currently sitting at the St. Louis airport, absolutely exhausted! Y’all mentioned that you wanted to see some more personal posts, so I thought I would do a bit of a recap on the trip.
The first night, we flew/drove three hours to stay with my grandpa overnight and tour a local school the next morning. My grandma passed away in September, so this was our first time seeing my grandpa since her funeral. It was nice to see that he was handling things well on his own, although it was definitely sad to be without her. I had toured that college before (my grandpa used to work in its maintenance department), but hadn’t visited while school was in session so it was nice to get a feel of the campus when it was full of students.
The next day, we toured a college about 3 hours away. I feel in love with the campus and the students, although their nursing program wasn’t quite as strong as I would ideally like it to be.
Our third day was a free day, so we got to sleep in and take our time whilst driving. It was a super pretty; we went through the Wisconsin Dells and saw the lovely lakes and fall foliage. We spent the night in Milwaukee, a city I hadn’t travelled to before. That afternoon, we went to the Third Ward, a trendy little area of downtown that our hotel guide recommended we visit.
I cannot see myself attending the school I toured on the fourth day. We’re leaving it at that. But hey, there are schools out there for EVERYONE and we all have different likes/dislikes and needs. Unfortunately, the tension that had been building up as the trip went by ballooned up. It was about 1:30, we hadn’t eaten lunch yet. The school had a “refreshments station” set up with boxed sandwiches and chips. I do not handle spontaneous meals or unknown meal times/schedules/items. My mom was frustrated because she has been noticing that I’ve been restricting. It’s hard for her, I understand. I felt like she kept saying snarky comments throughout the trip like: “oh well, you wouldn’t eat that”. And I just popped. I don’t suffer from panic attacks, although what I had that afternoon is probably comparable. I literally wanted to run and hide and my anxiety was through the roof. I wanted to eat, but I didn’t want to eat in front of my mom. And the pressure of eating on the trip had just built up to the point where I burst out sobbing in the middle of campus and hid on a bench trying to hide from my mom. After that blow up, we had a 6 hour drive. That was not super fun, but I was able to gather myself together enough to handle it. I lived.
I’m still feeling a bit on edge.
I need to hang in there.
Today was insanely busy. We woke up fairly early, went to a college tour/event until the early afternoon. The schedule at the event was crazy: we didn’t have any free time until 2. So we grabbed some quickly after, and then drove about 15 minutes to go visit my friend Grace who is a freshman at a nearby school. I hadn’t seen her since this summer and it was so nice to catch up! I sat in on her class from 3-4 and then she gave me a quick tour of her dorm. Unfortunately the visit was rather short because my mom and I had to leave to go to the airport at 4:30.
So that was my busy weekend! I hope you all are doing well and that you had a fun weekend too!
What was your favorite thing that you did this weekend?